Snake, my condolences. I'm so sorry about Amy. She sounded like an amazing dog.
I recently went through the same thing with my cat, Leetol. I'd had him since I was 6 yrs old, and he had been my constant companion for 19 years. He was a rag doll, and loved being kissed and held. We had moved to a new apartment and took him along with us. Everyone in our apartment complex was smitten with him. One morning, a neighbor knocked on my door to tell me he was acting strange in the driveway. Apparently, someone in our complex had callously hit him with their car (and never came forward to admit it). Despite extreme internal injuries, he was relentlessly trying to crawl back to our apartment to find me. After bringing him to the vet, I had to make one of the hardest decisions in my life to put him to sleep. I have never cried so much in my life. My eyes were swollen for days. Things are better now, and it doesn't hurt as much to talk about. Even though it happened over 6 months ago though, I still sometimes wake up in the morning expecting him to be there next to me. I know what you're going through, Snake. This kind of grief can only be healed with time. My thoughts go out to Amy and your family.
I recently went through the same thing with my cat, Leetol. I'd had him since I was 6 yrs old, and he had been my constant companion for 19 years. He was a rag doll, and loved being kissed and held. We had moved to a new apartment and took him along with us. Everyone in our apartment complex was smitten with him. One morning, a neighbor knocked on my door to tell me he was acting strange in the driveway. Apparently, someone in our complex had callously hit him with their car (and never came forward to admit it). Despite extreme internal injuries, he was relentlessly trying to crawl back to our apartment to find me. After bringing him to the vet, I had to make one of the hardest decisions in my life to put him to sleep. I have never cried so much in my life. My eyes were swollen for days. Things are better now, and it doesn't hurt as much to talk about. Even though it happened over 6 months ago though, I still sometimes wake up in the morning expecting him to be there next to me. I know what you're going through, Snake. This kind of grief can only be healed with time. My thoughts go out to Amy and your family.